I'm not going to lie. I'm nervous. Today, I had an interview and it was really very difficult for me to express myself in the most positive light. The guy kept asking me questions about where I stood as far as the support structure at my last place of employment.
It really brought all those old feeling all over again.
What did I do wrong?
Why did this happen to me?
Where am I going? Who am I now that I can't provide for my family?
Despite all that I tried to find the best answers for the problems and finally I said that if they truly wanted to know how I was as a worker they can contact some of my references.
My wife says that was a good answer and I honestly believe her because the guy stopped asking questions after that and we moved on.
Last Days
Today was also the beginning of the last week working at Intel and -to tell the truth- the last month has been really difficult for me. In addition to the stress and worry of finding another source of employment, I've had to spend all of this month training the person who will be replacing me. Honestly, I've been trying to get him up and running but he's been running into a number of problems related to permissions and other little gotchas along the way.
I wish him the best and I see a lot of new and exciting opportunities for him going forward.